Birthday Swim suits

Well, hello there!

Whether you wanted to or not, you are now joining me for breakfast because I'm eating a delicious bowl of Cookie Dough Oatmeal as I write this. YUM-E!!! "Whaaaat?" you say. "Cookie Dough Oatmeal doesn't sound like it would be included in a comp diet?"

Well, it is. (OK, all i did was add Cookie Dough SF DaVinci Gourmet syrup, but still!)

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I have to say, though, that TODAY I feel so energized and ready to conquer the world. Well, maybe not THE world, but MY world, for sure. I actually got 8 hours of sleep last night! This restful feeling was almost foreign to me, but man it feels AMAZING! My TOM has always been REALLY short. If I compared my TOM to a hotel, it would most definitely be a Holiday Inn Express. Here today, gone tomorrow. (Thank God!) However, those two days are b.r.u.t.a.l with cramps, bloating, extreme fatigue, forgetfulness, moodiness, temporary insanity, etc. This week, I've taken two rest days- Sunday and Monday- because I just felt so exhausted. Both days I've taken 3-hour afternoon naps and did not accomplish anything on my list. It happens.

The past two days I've felt HUGE. Like, Big McLarge Huge. That, in turn, makes me feel like a schizophrenic. One minute I'm up, the next I'm down. One minute I have all the confidence of Lara Croft, the next I'm Ugly Betty. One minute I think I can actually pull this bikini competition off. The next minute I think I'll only embarrass myself. I looked at my calendar, then at my waistline and thought, "There is NO way I'm going to be ready for this competition November 13th. Not a chance." I've been feeling so much pressure and nobody is pressuring me but myself. I feel like I'm going crazy!

Then this morning, I woke up feeling tighter and leaner. (Thanks a lot, water-weight-gain for freaking me out so much the past few days!) I stepped on the scale and no, it was not down a pound. It was actually UP a pound (go figure), but I don't care because I FEEL tighter so the scale can SHOVE IT! You heard me. The.scale.can.shove.it.

My focus is back and I'm going to continue training for this competition with the same ferociousness and determination that I have been and I'm still aiming for the November 13th show. However, there is also the November 20th show a week later, as well as one in February, however that one is just a contingency show if my body doesn't respond how I tell it to.

Perhaps you are thinking that by the mere fact that I even have researched other, later shows sounds like I'm chickening out or making excuses for possibly not doing the November show. Well, to you, Doubting Thomasina, I say, "Nope, That just isn't so." In fact, I have news. I BOUGHT MY SWIMSUIT!!!

Last week I decided I need to get the ball rolling on looking for birthday swimsuits (well, actually they look more like birthday suits, if you ask me. They barely cover anything!!!). I've already pictured it in my head wearing a GREEN swimsuit, because it would look awesome with my rockin' RED hair. As much as I adore PINK, redheads can't always pull it off without clashing, so I decided green was the next best color. I found a GORGEOUS swimsuit at a reasonable price and went ahead and bit the bullet (Haha, get it. 'Cause I'm a "GUNslinger" . sigh.). My husband was very supportive (mainly because he'll drop any amount of money to have his wife in a tiny bikini HAHA!)

Anyway, I have a picture of the swimsuit, but I kind of want it to be a surprise, so I'm not going to show it just yet. The reason is, the swimsuits come in ONE SIZE. Not "One Size Fits All". Hubby took my measurements and let's just say, if the top will cover even ONE of my boobs, that will be a starting place. It's no secret--I have giant boobs and they aren't exactly getting small losing weight. I've got to find a suit that will allow me to hide and tuck away my "wobbly bits". ***Gosh, I love Bridget Jones*** I really, really, really love this swimsuit and it should arrive in the mail tomorrow. I'm going to try it on and see how much of my girls it'll cover. I think if the suit is manageable, but still exposes the girls more than I (or my husband, for that matter) would like, then I may have to get creative and embellish the suit by adding a bit of lace or fabric to it to to keep the girls covered as much as possible. That brings up a good point. Anybody know how to sew? ;)

I just want to thank you all again for the encouragement and for your comments. Ya'll really know how to make this Texan (living in Pittsburgh) feel good and you excite me even more to do this! I hope today your day is blessed with the same JOY, POSITIVITY and ENCOURAGEMENT that you've brought me! Texas-sized hugs to you all...and to all a goodnight!